Archive for February, 2005

It fell from the sky

February 26, 2005

Once again it appears our government is spraying for weeds. This time its in Afganistan. From Athenian at Dkos, we get this catch:

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Science News

February 23, 2005

Ok, enough of “this sharing my feelings” crap. Instead, let us shift our attention to the wonderful world of science. From CNN, this story about bacteria, and the possibility of life on Mars.

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Blogs, the internet, and cheese…..

February 23, 2005

Ever find yourself sitting there, staring at your computer, feeling the need to post but lacking in enthusiasm? No? Well shit, I guess it is just me.

What is driving me crazy (today anyway) is that I get to read all these great posts all day long on blogs run by people who I think I would enjoy having a conversation with. I mean a real, sit down, have a beer conversation. The horror, I know, we internet freaks are rarely seen in public. God forbid we ever meet.

I feel blessed to get to share so much with so many, to be able to slip into the world of people thousands of miles away and read their thoughts. But still, it feels so hollow sometimes, sitting here reading a post someone obviously poured their heart into, not being able to respond directly while they are still in that moment.

I know, I should get out more, meet new people. In my own defense, I live in Texas, and you would not believe the people here. I guess it’s just that you meet some of the most interesting folks on the internet, and it would be nice to, oh I don’t know, talk with them.

All the emails, comments, and posts in the world can never replace the joy of a good conversation. It’s about more than words. The tone of voice, posture, laughter (LOL does not count, sorry), atmosphere, all these things are part of a conversation.

So to all of you out there, if god ever hates you so much that she sends you to Texas, first rounds on me.

Oh, and I’m a sharp cheddar man myself.

Go say hello.

February 21, 2005

If you haven’t already, check out Bloogeyman’s site.

The more of us there are, the harder it is to ignore us.

Where do I fit in?

February 21, 2005

I was reading this post over at Dkos, and it occured to me that I don’t know where I stand anymore. I am not a Democrat nor a Republican. I think nationalism and organized religion are bullshit. But I also feel it is important to protect the Constitution because it is the only legal document we have to keep the country I live in from turning into a theocracy. I am a non-practicing pagan who believes in evolution and a living universe. I study science and religious history, and find them both fascinating. I have many gay friends who I love even though I find two men kissing unsettling (which stems from my having been sexually molested by a man as a child). I hate suburban America, but still live comfortably in the suburbs. I fear tomorrow, regret yesterday and am not sure what to do with today.

I find liberals as annoying as conservatives. I cannot stand uneducated people, but wonder if I am really as educated as I like to believe. I wish nothing less than perfect happiness for each and every person, but I cannot stand to talk to them long enough to express it. I hate crowds, but am at my best in front of them.

I feel confused and alone, like a freak in a sideshow, kept at arms length and spoken about but not to. I have a wonderful love in my life but feel unworthy of it. I try to “be myself” but am constantly adjusting my attitude to placate those around me. I feel powerful in that I am not a victim of propoganda, but understanding all this makes me feel lost.

I know I am not alone in feeling this way, and I realize that everyone is just trying to find their place in the world. I guess in the end all I can do is keep living my life the best way I feel I can, and if there is an afterlife I have nothing to fear, for in the end we only answer to ourselves.

Hmmm, I guess this all means I’m only human. I think I’m ok with that.

You’re either with us or………..

February 19, 2005

Ah, that famous line, “You are either with us or against us.” It seems America has a love for it. This attitude that permeates the war on terror is the same one our government had during the Cold War. And they are playing by the same rules they did then. Just look at how this administration handles its foriegn policy. We invaded Iraq “to bring democracy” to the Iraqi people (or has the reason changed again, it’s so hard to keep up) while we support brutal dictators in countries like Uzbekistan.

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For fucks sake…..

February 16, 2005

Go read this piece about the situation in Iraq from TomDispatch by Tom Engelhardt. Then email it to anyone you know who supported the invasion of Iraq and ask them if it was worth making Iraq worse than it was under Saddam.

Another Neocon Dickhead

February 11, 2005

I was simply going to post this little tidbit I found on COHA’s site, but then decided to Google Elliot Abrams to get more info on the man. Holy crap, what a bastard.

Why has an admitted perjurer, a facilitator of death squads and an arms broker to Islamic terrorists just been appointed to be deputy national security adviser to President Bush?

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North Korea: A Bluff?

February 11, 2005

Is this just another attempt by North Korea to get leverage in talks with South Korea and the US? Possibly. Kim Jong-il knows he cannot win a war with us by himself, but he also knows that we will not invade his country because of China. We do not want another war with China (The Korean War, Vietnam), and both the US and China are making too much money to get embroiled in a conflict.

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No More Optimism

February 3, 2005

For fucks sake, is there no sanity left in the world? Listening to president poptart makes my head hurt.

It would seem that the country, and possibly the world, is screwed. Well thanks a whole fucking lot the 50.8% of you that put this dick weed back in power.

Don’t mind the mushroom clouds, they’re just spreading freedom and liberty.

And I so wanted to believe that just maybe something good could come from the Iraqi election if for no other reason than that the Iraqi people deserve a break. But that is not how reality works.

Bummer.