Archive for October, 2004

the end of a dream

October 30, 2004

i haven’t written much lately because i am depressed. for a while there i thought it mattered that i worked to get news out that was being missed. but no one reads this site anyway, so it was a waste of my time.

what the fuck has happened to america? it doesn’t matter who wins the election on tuesday. the country will still be divided down the middle and the winner will be stuck without support to move the country either way.

so i was talking to a friend from somolia the other day and he said it amazes him that we haven’t collapsed into civil war yet. maybe that is what we need. talking has only polarized us more, and the elusive truth we bloggers yearn for doesn’t seem to exist. we will never know the truth about what is going on in the world. the powers that be see to that.

humanity in the end only seems to understand one thing, war. america is a pipe dream. the more i learn the more i see that. its just an ideologue, and every person has their own view on it. with no unity we will crumble. so lets just skip to the last page and go to war, a civil war.

we tried it once and it was messy. but now we have better weapons and we could make it final. lets rip our country apart once and for all. we don’t deserve this ideal anyway. our country is broken beyond repair. why not go out with a bang?

instead of going down like rome, lets make it one for the record books.

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fuck it

October 2, 2004

some days you just can’t win. it’s part of life. this week has been a living hell. and since no one actually reads this blog, i guess it won’t matter if i go off. i had three exams this week: mechanical behaviors of materials, machine design I and thermodynamics II. and since that wasn’t enough i also had an upper respiratory infection.

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